1. This inner belief that I don’t deserve to have money come to me so easily b/c I want to earn it so that others would admire me..so i don’t appear lazyor “lucky”. Wow! this belief was burried deep under.

2. Then the belief that it doesn’t come easily fast enough or often enough lol. It happens in a blue moon. lol. I need to change this story lol

3. I have my heart set on being independent this yr. and that includes financially. I wanted to have several other streams on income coming in. The thought of having my own business’s is exciting. So perhaps that’s a preventing it to come easily as well b/c of my belief that I have to work for it to feel that i deserve it.
(wow another ah ha belief. lol)

hmm… I guess this sums up to my belief that I don’t deserve money to come easily to me. which doesn’t surprise me I grew up being told to work hard b/c the more money u make the better easier life is.. n being told I lazy as a child didn’t help that either. lol. Explains why i want to earn my income.

Nice. Hopefully I can use this awareness to change my financial outcome.. wish me “luck”. =0)

This past week I’ve felt stuck and frustrated as I paid bills and watched my account balance go down. I kept saying, “but I took MMM over the summer, and I was doing so well. What happened?”

As Carrie and I started talking she noticed that I seemed to have a problem with the word abundance. She said, “Does abundance seem extreme to you?” I thought about it and asked her to test me, and it turns out I did!

On a subconscious level, I was still associating abundance with being ostentatious– and therefore not something I felt truly comfortable with.

Now that I’m aware of this, I can begin to change the way I feel about abundance….

Thank you that so true- and i love an abundance of Lackyou will like this
Worry is Prayer that attracts what you do desire!

I love seeing you validate yourself
Hugs

Suzie Cheel you are Brilliant!! An Abundance of Lack! No matter what you focus on, there’s more than enough for everyone – including lack.

I am loving how you are opening my eyes about money. I have this feeling that as I learn from you, my view of money as a big orange scary Tiger (undependable and untrustworthy) will turn into an idea of it as an Elephant. I have fear and what I want is Friendly Awe and Respect. I know I could love and trust an elephant!

Money had the power to Take Away from me in my childhood, take away my house, take away my security & friendships (moving for dad’s work)take away my dad (far away work) and now I experience having to pay bills and “deal with $” as a “Taking Away My Time and Energy”…and I feel angry. (Money as Villian) I’ve begun to create 2X a month to “deal with money” and have tried for 2 years to figure out a “system” but to no avail. I have made dealing with money and bills hard simply because I resist taking the time to do it and getting in a freeze/fear mode sometimes when I was afraid I didn’t want to look, because there might not be enough. (Ostrich buried in sand, anyone?)
I want to love money and my relationship with it instead of being afraid of it.

I notice that my story around not creating the body I want is that if I’m too pretty, it will make someone else feel “less than” pretty, so I keep myself an average weight. I commit this year to being at my best size and fitness level. The story is that I’m so awesome that if I really land in that awesomeness, that others might feel inferior. Interesting work for a Image Coach, I’d say. The sweetheart message is that I want EVERYONE to feel beautiful, pretty and powerful (Golden!)- especially me!
Love, kisses and squeezes to you. Auretha

I think a payoff I have is that being a suffering hero/martyr brings praise from other people who say, “Look how determined you are, good for you” and that kind of thing. One thing for me to realize is that other people’s opinions don’t matter. Another thing to realize is that if they *do* matter, I can still get lots of praise for being successful! lol So my validation from outside sources, in fact I need it, doesn’t depend on my being unhappy.

My new statement is, I now accept reality, which is that I am a naturally abundant creative being. I haven’t played the suffering hero because I was focused on lack, but because on some level I recognized the disparity between what I was living and what I am really worth. It’s right that I should be rich, and I allow myself to embrace that now. A prospering hero has so much more to offer the world anyway.