Being Sick in the Vortex
Earlier this week on her GVU call Flavia Daay and I discovered we’re both sick with cold/flu symptoms.
It led to a sweet conversation about our mutual experiences, that sounded suspiciously like “being sick in the vortex.”
We’re sharing thoughts here in hopes they help you next time you want to release resistance to illness …
I love how I’m navigating the different aspects of this cold. In the past eight years each time I’ve experienced flu symptoms, the experience of allowing the healing to happen has gotten progressively better. The love and appreciation I feel for my body, my brilliant co-creator, gets deeper.
With each experience I notice I trust my body more and more. I’m letting it lead me in such a smooth, gentle way towards what feels better and most comfortable in any moment, toward what feels most like ease. I let go lovingly for the sake of enabling my body to do what it knows how to do.
I’m really glad I’m not bothered by the occurrence of this cold. I accept it wholeheartedly. I feel no judgment around why I attracted this. This time I know that if it’s happening, it’s happening FOR me. It’s for the best somehow and I can find many reasons. Like Abraham says, when you are sick, your body is asking for health and well-being stronger than ever before. So maybe every now and then a little cold fortifies the body?! That thought feels good to me right now.
I also feel clear about what caused my life force to be pinched off a bit. A feeling of overwhelm (on Saturday I did say it would take me 3 days to do what I wanted to do that day) and the letting go of a relationship, which I felt my way through and now feel at peace about.
I’ve taken lots of actions, like drinking lots of lemon juice, apple cider vinegar, coconut oil, some fresh veggie and fruit juices. I even received inspiration to watch a Teal Scott video that reminded me to gargle with salt water.
And when I couldn’t sleep well the first night I let it be okay instead of resisting it. And it actually helped me feel more refreshed during the day on much less sleep and the subsequent nights it actually helped me fall sleep despite not being able to swallow easily.
But it’s really not the actions that matter. It’s how I felt doing them. I did them with loving care. I even love my echinacea honey lemon drops that have helped me ease into sleep. I used to not want to buy cough drops thinking it would mean I expected to be sick and need them. But then I decided nothing has inherent meaning and I choose to buy it with the idea that I may never need it (like an umbrella that you take with you and it never rains) but if I did need it, then it would be there for me.
I can really see so many valuable things that have come out of this experience. I’m in genuine awe and appreciation and the result of that can only be it moving faster, more un-hindered through my body. The Communion of Light says “everything wants to evolve” and I’m so happy I have been enabling my body to do just that.
When you put it like that, Flavia, who wouldn’t want to get sick now and then?!
I myself noticed how interesting it was to be in the house yesterday just resting, without all my usual busy-ness online or on the phone. I cancelled everything I felt comfortable cancelling, and prepared for a day of mostly “nothing.” To just be present to the stillness of the day.
The dogs and the cats snoozed nearby as usual, and it was rewarding to get a glimpse of their every day life. This is how it could be for me, too – if I just created more stillness to be present to it. The sun moving slowly through the living room. Birds flitting about the trees outside. The sound of the heater turning on, and then off again. So still and lovely.
And here I was still and lovely, too. Because of this cold that required me to slow down and rest.
What a gift!
Flavia and I laughed about how interesting our new voices were, with sore throats and stuffy noses. I shared how nice it was to have support from friends and family – mom offering to send over soup, ex-beau covering vet appointments for me, friend & colleague Lisa asking what she could take over, another ex-beau picking up cleaning chores. How gratifying to remember how much everyone loves and supports us.
Being at rest while my body manages this bug has also given me the opportunity to embrace my diva self. Finding a way to know what serves me best and allow that to unfold. No martydom here. I’m a diva with gusto!
Flavia mentioned this video where Teal Scott says it’s not so much a crisis of illness that we’re experiencing as it is a crisis of healing. That’s what the body’s doing to rid itself of the internal toxins – sneezing, coughing, etc. to remove the buildup of toxicity. That’s a nice way to think of it. This isn’t something gone wrong, this is perfectly healthy!
Maybe you have some nice thoughts or experiences to share about appreciating “illness”? If so, we’d love to hear them!