Q&A: What Am I Missing?
In the spirit of holiday generosity, let’s offer some LOA friendly support to a fellow creator who feels stumped in her manifesting.
Here’s our friend’s situation:
In the last month and a half or so I have failed to create what I desire …
I want to lose weight, I want the love of my life back, I want a good job, I want a nice house on some land, I want to spread joy and I want to manifest the reason I have always felt I have something really important to give to the world.
But, here I am, just turned 40, back in my parents’ house. No job. Running out of savings quickly. And I am in intense to moderate pain everyday over breaking up with my love.
I hear you saying “Let it go, friend, let it go.” So, I let it go for a day or two.
And then the sadness creeps back. I visualize. I pray rain. I journal. I look for signs in everything. I stare at the stars and know I am stardust too. I try to soak myself in the love of my family and have laughs with my friends.
But I know I am missing something. I’ve got to be.
I am grateful for so many things and tell the universe often. For the safety of the roof over my head, the warmth and love in this house. For my health, for my parents’ health, for my dogs, for the money I do have, the car that works, the love I do have in my life.
I pay attention to how I am feeling and when I start to dip, I do the best I can to have better feeling thoughts. I meditate with Vishen everyday. I visualize like crazy! For an hour straight sometimes! When I feel lost, I read your blogs. Everyday, I am reminded of a new lesson.
But, I am doing something wrong!!! I have gotten to the point where I can no longer just relax and let the universe take hold.
I am running out of money. And I have had several interviews, one that was very hopeful. I was supposed to talk to the guy yesterday about it. I called and left vm. He never called back. I called today and left another vm. Here’s to intending him to call back today.
I know the worst thing I can do right now is panic. But, I feel I’ve been pretty laid back about the job situation this entire time. I really believe this job will work out. I have a fear that it won’t, I mean, the fear of the worst possible scenario exists, but I do not sink energy into it. I’m beginning to become disenchanted and that scares the hell out of me. I believe that the law works. Why is the contrast still so strong?
I find that things that do manifest were once fleeting thoughts. I hardly sunk energy into them. But that’s not conscious creation! There are SO many different strategies to creation, how can I possibly know when to use which one? I am definitely doing it wrong. Please help.
What words of wisdom do you have for our fellow creator?
Thanks in advance for sharing your thoughts and your manifesting expertise.