When the Magic List Isn't Working
You’ve got to admit, those two hour success stories are fabulous to hear!
(Thanks, Pernille, for guest posting your experience with us about how your phone rang with good news hours after listing what you wanted.)
And much as I’d like to say that’s how I roll, too, those immediate result stories tend to be the exception rather than the rule in my life.
It’s much more typical that my big “wins” creep in gradually – over weeks, months or even years.
This post is for anyone who’s been frustrated they didn’t get immediate magical results or still haven’t had even a whiff of their happy ending.
What gives when you’ve been making the same list for 4 1/2 years?
For me this isn’t a hypothetical question. My Intentions Journal dates as far back as October 2005 with the same elusive entry:
- In fall of 2005 it included a “slam-bam-thank-you-ma’am” body
- In December 2005 I intended to gift myself with 2″ smaller hips.
- In May 2006 I wanted to lose 7 pounds.
- In June 2006 I started to get a better handle on the true desire: “feel even better about my body.”
- But in July I was right back to wanting size 6 back.
- August 2006: perfect body
- September 2006: feeling good in my body
- October 2006: reaching my ideal weight
- November 2006: embrace my natural size 6 self
- February 2007: be the girl who loves her body
- March 2007: enjoy my sexy size 6
- October 2007: best shape ever
- By 2008 I was intending fabulous health, getting better every day
- December 2008: lean, strong, toned, flexible & rockin’ was on the list yet again.
- 2009 intentions included “gorgeous, healthy, fit body”
- February 2009: love and appreciate this body 100%
If that doesn’t deserve a couple rounds of “What the hell?!” I don’t know what does.
After all, I know how this works and I’m a pro at working it.
I know weight comes from resistant thoughts, and that all I gotta do is drop the resistance wherever I find it. I know this stuff. And I practice it!
But here’s what else I know:
- As long as I think something is wrong or that something should change I am in resistance. (What we resist, persists.)
- Until I make peace with what is, nothing can change.
- If I don’t love this body as she is right here right now there’s no hope of loving her when she weighs whatever I think would be better. It’s gotta start right here. With the scale saying whatever it says.
- For me to think I know best what this body should do is pretty ridiculous. She’s way smarter than I am.
And perhaps through her consistency in offering me this lesson, I will finally have to break down and just love and accept her as she is.
In that moment, there will finally be vibrational alignment. (Not just alignment to size six, or to 15 less pounds, but alignment to love.)
That’s when bodies get healthier and happier and even more smokin’ hot than they already are.
I guess the gift here is that the list didn’t immediately give me what I said I wanted, and in that opportunity I am forced to truly (eventually) learn unconditional love. For myself. For my body.
Come to think of it … maybe this list is magic after all.
The same way my crackhead neighbor taught me how to feel better before there was any reason to, my body is teaching me an even deeper skill level. Love yourself, love your life – no matter what.
I can do that.
In fact, I just flipped ahead in the Intentions Journal to recall what I wrote for January 2010. Here’s what it said (among other things): love my body, through and through, AS IS, now.
I might be on to something finally, huh? 😉